I wiIl NEVER live a life of HYPOCRITE
I do not like to live with hypocrites, that's why it is kinda hard for me to find a friend who's like me. To tell you the truth and I can admit that I'm definitely not those "Holy Holy Girl" and not those who have an "Innocent Face".
I don't find anything wrong with drinking if I don't do anything bad other than that .. That's the time to destress from work and have fun with my girl friends. You must be as sampat as me or as crazy and boy-ish like me in order to get along. So far, my college friends are the few that can put up with me and do dumb things at shopping complex or where ever and we're not bothered by how people around us tend to stare. As long as I live my life happily, why care about what others think?
My other discovery so far is my colleague, people is circulating that both of us is lesbian in the office, they say we do everything together and we tell each other every secrets. They "classified" us as twins and make fun of us. Excuse me, I don't even give a shit about that. At least I dare to do and I'm not afraid of what others say as long as I'm walking right. Better than some bitch who gossips behind and fat hiao infront of guys, am I right?
Me and her, we still can proudly say "We're YOUNG and there's so much opportunity out there and we can wear cute and sexy clothes without others saying - Wa Lau you what age dy?"
That's the problem when you stuff the who office with girls and women, who are old in age and single?
Well as least I'm proud to say "I don't say one thing, and do another thing infront of others". I don't go and tell people how Holy I'm and how much I want to change and I won't go clubbing, drinking or change my closet and infact doing those behind, just that church people can't see them. The ME who's in the morning and the ME who's at night.
I think my mom did not gave birth to 3 girls and 1 boys. Infact all of us is boy. What to do, when you always mingle around with all guy cousins and they taught you how to play toy guns and fight kung fu style. All this had brought me to who I'm today and I'm never ashame to be who I am.
Opppss, now you know where I work and the company's name.
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A failure of faithfulness
Words of caring would be so much more better than brushing me off every time. Really make me wonder, there's no relationship that will last. People tend to get fed up easily and they change their mind everytime. I wish I can let go of things easily and walk out of the shadow of depression soon and live with a smile everyday.
I can't. I need support from people around me, I will fall in one night just because of some matters. I do not want to live in the past. I want to forget about every pain that I have went through.
Are you one of them who are helping me?
Do you know how does it feels to have like 30packets of medicine infront of me, because I've visited the doc more than 10times this year.
Also, every night there's tons of medicine I need to take before I sleep? Why me? Why I'm always the one falling sick. I am really tired.
These medicine will continue a year, if I do heal. Most important part still lies in my brain, medicine will only boost me up until a level and they need to be stop one day.
I'm looking forward to the day that I can stand still and tell others that I'm a normal human being. How is this possible when the closest person refuse to even lend a helping hand but only pushing me deeper everyday? I only wanted words of caring, am I asking too much?
How will you feel when you're down, yet people is using discouraging words on you. Pain, if that's from the person you love dearly.
I wish to sleep and not wake up from my dream. Only be awake when people learns to appreciate.
Human made mistakes but not too often, I have given many chances. When you regret one day, that will be the day when it's too late.
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How Long Ago is My Last Post?
I don't even remember when was my last post. Whereby I've stopped blogging a while back, I guess that's what is gonna happen to us when we're just way too busy with life - Work, Play, Sleep. Mostly is work 70% a day. Agree? There's no such thing as work life balance anymore and does not apply here in Malaysia. I've only heard of people working to death.
Thanks to some irresponsible
fellor I'm now quarantined at home, NO as everyone is worrying about H1N1 the fatal virus for now, I'm down with Rubella what they call "Fake Measles" in
cantonese. The doctor cannot confirm because I'm half half the symptoms - i.e. rashes that looks alike and
swollen lymph nodes. However no fever, weird I'm.
I
memang is a very weird person/human being from the beginning right?
I am still
figuring or I have concluded that the working world out here is a world full of meanies and full of competition whereby people can just do anything for their own benefit. If I don't try to protect myself, one day someone is just going to kill me silently with a knife. I admit
alot of times that I do say a lot of things to protect my own benefits. Also, I do things that solely on what you call selfish. Else? How on am I supposed to survive the cruel world out here.
Does being someone different meaning others can see it? I don't think so. Or others can feel? I think this only applies to someone or I should call a good friend that I can trust. ONLY her.
OK, so I'm stuck at home until my blood test is out or until Sunday? I am needing tons of fresh air and good food. Working from home is so bored when there's 0 motivation. There's no one to talk to. No Ivy to come pinch my ass, gosh I'm missing her?? Ah, I'm so in love with her =P
So today I went through a
concall, as you know I am not allowed to go out and infect others (but others can come infect me, hey this isn't fair). Here is how the
concall went ..
Bee (my colleague) dial from office to connect us, let's just jump straight to the call
A: So what is wrong with you? You confirm got measles one or not (In VERY sarcastic tone)
Me: Er, no the doctor say have to wait until blood test report is out
A: You sure you're not faking by using a red marker to draw dots over yourself and tell others that you're sick? (Haha, f*** you is so not a funny joke)
Me: Why would I do so? (Bloody B**** you want me to show you my medical cert or I come personally to you and stripped off to show you my hands, legs, body and private part that so called I use marker to draw even on my ass hole where I cannot reach?)
A: I thought you purposely do so because you don't wanna come out to have meeting with me or you're scared of me (OHH, I'm more than happy to go out because I'm gonna rot soon, you want some virus too? I love needles I with that I have one now to take some of my blood out now and poke on your head)
Me: Er, no? Just that I can't go out because I would infect others? (Wish that you're pregnant and your baby bcome cacat)
A: Aiyar, where got such things cannot go out one .. (I so wish to go so close to you and infect you with Rubella then your turn to stay home and I don't need to get instructions from you !! Oh YAY!)
Can you imagine that there's such mean people on this earth? And most of them are WOMEN ! What the ..
Quote from Ivy - If you have any "Winter melon taufu, three long two short" (Tong Gua Tau Fu, Sam Cheong Leong Deun) don't come and find me.
I know I'm not supposed to think that way, but I just can't help ..
Why such people do not get punishment in their life, but why so many good people with kind heart out there have to suffer? Whereas people like these are living rich and have all the authorities to critise others.
"Wo Bu Ren Ming, Wo Ye Bu Hui Ren Ming" - From Little Nyonya
What A day, tomorrow will be a better day .. Always look to the brighter side. Can't wait for my Aussie trip, my boots and winter jacket are shouting "Suzanne I miss you".
Muahh, end my day happily and not letting others affect me, that's how life should be. Live the way you want it to be and let not the factors determine and take over your life.
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Dog eat dog human eat human world
Face the fact that we're living in such world, proceed to the working arena and you will know what I am trying to say here.
Some just plainly have no feelings or understanding for others, some treat you so well that you would stay for them and even wanting to buy a thank you card.
Some screams and used harsh words, some just sit down patiently and tell you where is your mistake and how to improve in future.
Some just show you black long face as if you've step on their tail, some just smile at you all day and ask if you're fine or you need any help.
Some just tell you "I don't care whatever problem you have, just finish that piece of work", some just care and say "Do let me know if you have any problems coping or there's too much workload or you need a raise or you just need a listening ear"
Some just think that you should work all the time during working hours because you are paid, some just think that will be fine if you go on surfing to clear your mind for a while as long as you finish your task.
Some just won't even pay for your lunch or even sit down with you, some just say let's go for lunch today is my treat because I'm your boss and I had never treat you anything.
Some just think that you're lazy because you go home at 6pm sharp everyday, some just smile wave goodbye and say see you tomorrow.
Some just think that you must strictly follow the rule, lunch 1 hour is 1 hour no more than that coming back late is a NO NO, some just think that will be fine sometimes we should take longer hours to relax and spend time with colleague if we have nothing important in hand.
Some just call you at wee hours and tell you something which he/she can tell you tomorrow which is so not urgent, some just say this is not working hours and we should just have a casual chat and say nothing about work.
I can continue this list forever ..
In working world there's many different people with different attitudes. I face both above, working under her I stayed back late everyday and under stress that I could not cope. However under her I'm glad to have her, she taught me and treated me like a friend. I will thank her one day for what she have done and help me throughout when I'm still so fresh. I hope that God will bless her family and cure her mother. Good people should deserve such blessings in life.
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Untitled
Lying on the bed and the blanket is like a protection for me, covered from toe to my head, don't want to see anything nor hear anything.
Regret can never let you turn back the time and unchanged the things you do not want or wish to be in the situation as you are currently in.
Sleep does not give you rest until your mind has fully shut down and leave behind all things of the day.
Human is not the one you can depend on or trust, they at times betray you or they do not value you.
Medicine is what I rely on today yet work stress and personal matters are pulling me down. How am I going to recover when people around me is not trying to help?
I am tired. Always tired. Sleep.
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Struggling to hang on there
Some of you would know what I'm saying here, some might not ...
I'm having a hard time to hang on from what I've build on
Out of my capability of handling things by my own, I decided to seek help finally after 4-5years, I broken down on Friday when I finally could't hold anything anymore
I'm glad for each and every family member who helped me through and also some friends
9 months is going to be a long draggy process of healing
If you don't know anything about my past and what had been going on in my life, I suggest to you just don't give comments based on your own thoughts
NEVER easy to pick up myself, NEVER as easy as said, NEVER to be like how you put in those brilliant words
Still I thank you for those who's around me
I love ya'll just give me some time and I will smile again, as of now, I'm just like a dead fish
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Beauty Talk美人語氧氣面膜膠
I've been eye-ing on this since the day when I stepped in to SaSa and the sales assistant intro me and show me how good is the product. I have doubt before I do much research, so I do not want to spend blindly on products that I don't know well. So I went home and Google to do some research or read review on those ppl who had used/try this product before. Also watched the
"Nu Ren Wo Zhui Da" programme.
This product is like a big hype in Singapore and the girls went gaga just to grab them. They claimed that Malaysia is cheaper, I think the mas is selling at SGD89. While Malaysia's is price at RM189.
Look at that price, that's why I wanted to read more before I buy, even though I know I got the vouchers and in the end that thing is free. I just don't want to like buy already then dump them aside.
Reviews
Link to the official website in Taiwan. Beauty Talk.
What is so special about this mask? No this is not your normal sheet mask, also no this is not your normal apply and wash of mask.
This is like a new invention, apparently that's what they call Oxy Mask. Where when you apply the gel and expose to oxygen, they will turn into bubbles.
為什麼面膜會起泡？
Beauty Talk就是採用嶄新的「微脂囊」載體科技包覆
具有攜氧特性的
「Perfluorodecalin （高含氧精華）」，也就是用於醫學的專利成份，屬於高含
氧精華具有攜帶氧氣的特性，接觸肌膚後親脂性的微脂囊會深入肌膚內，此時遇到
溫度的改變，Perfluorodecalin會釋放氧氣於肌膚內，提高肌膚的含氧量；因此敷
完面膜後肌膚感覺特別光亮嫩滑，而且後續保養也將更容易被吸收。
Packaging wise, I would say not bad, cute design that comes with a pump. Drawbacks is that the mask is such a small bottle that contains 1.7Oz as you can see from picture above.
採特殊包裝，由底部按壓讓你用到最後一滴絕不浪費，
同時膠狀的面膜只要薄薄的
敷一層，就會開始冒泡，釋放氧氣來調整肌膚狀態，一罐約可以使用40～50次。
I bought the one that comes in a package.
1. Oxy Solution Mousse - To remove makeup or act as a toner (Original Price RM129)
2. Oxy Mask (Original Price (Rm189)
3. 2 pieces of Q10 sheet mask (Original Price RM12.90 per piece)
4. A travelling convenient bag (N/A)
Whole package is selling at RM269. First I thought they gave me some gonna expire stuffs. Dates were imprint as 11.09.09/ 11.09.16/ 11.10.08, so obviously and logically we read from front right? Just to realise these Taiwan products imprint were supposing meant to be read the other way round meaning all the expire date is 2011. What a lame joke.
First time trying to use the mask. SA also tested on my hand but very hard to prove effective.
使用用法：
1.將Beauty Talk氧氣面膜膠按壓2~4次於手心中，並取適量塗抹於全臉。
2.塗抹時以畫圓方式按摩2~5回，約一分鐘後起泡。
3.待泡泡消失即可洗淨臉部，含有溫和去角質以及深層清潔的功效，因此建議敷完
面膜後，可再敷濃縮精華液的面膜，此時含有豐富氧氣以及乾淨的毛孔，更能吸
收你所擦的保養品，讓美麗事半功倍喔！
1. Pump some gel on you finger tips and apply on your face (I would advise to to pump so much at one go as the gel turns bubble very fast, so probably just do half face/half face)
2. Massage the gel on your face and will turn into bubbles in like just a few seconds.
These two pictures are taken from 玩美莎莎 3. Feels like there's ants running on your face, when you hear the bubbles "pop pop" all over. Wait for the bubbles to finish While you wash of the product, and there will be gel like feeling on your face. Massage them into your skin and wash with water.
4. Done, face feels refreshed and wait 30-60minutes to apply any moisturizer or other products.
So far I had only tried once, in my opinion I don't see any difference yet as like I said, only once cannot say anything much. I do felt the difference that my skin is so much more softer than usual. My skin also stay fresh for the whole night after I used the mask. Usually my face turn oily T-zone after an hour I washed my face. After applying my moisturizer (Method Swiss) my face normally feels a bit greasy and oily however after using this prod uct, everything just absorbs leaving no traces at all.
Miracle just as what others had claimed? I need at least 4-5 try before I can say that =)
九大保養特色
1.修護、2.清潔、3.保濕：4.滋潤、5.緊緻、6.白皙、7.溫和去角質、8.平衡肌膚油脂、9.補充氧氣。
if my pimples and bumpy face is all gone by next month. Then seriously I would buy these even without my vouchers.
Anyway, this mask is recommended to use 2-3 times a week, which is like sooo costly. Therefore once a week is enough or else one bottle is only enough to supply one month - RM189. At least3-4months sounds more reasonable RM50-60 per month.
I'm using the Q10 mask while typing this entry, seemed that the Q10 sheet mask is pulling my face until so tight.
Consequences of buying all these ?
20 pieces of vouchers =RM1000 habis liao, no la I gave some to my sister and bought stuffs for my mom and family as well.
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Happy Day, Zero spending with loads of returns
We went Sunway Pyramid today, because I love that place so much, as their brands of things are relatively more affordable than those in 1Utama plus more choices. So there was this Ogawa roadshow going on, first we were reluctant to go in but one after another girl keep asking us to just go and try the massage chair. Happily sitting down, kena tangkap to play a couple game.
These was how the game went today
1. Wear those Ogawa slimming belt, Me (on my waist), Bf (on the neck)
2. Stick/lick those seaweed with my tongue/mouth and pass to him
3. He suck the seaweed from my mouth and dump them into a basket
We were the last pair to play, not many are that sporting to join the game. Supposingly looking for 5 pairs however they only grab hold of 3 pairs of couple.
1st team got 18 seaweeds, 2nd team got 9seaweeds and we got 19seaweeds. See being the last and learn from previous team mistake is so good. Vivien from MY fm was there too. So she said "You all sure lose to a 7years old couple la, people already master the skill of kissing". Wtfff ...
So here's what we got ...
A mini-joy massager, first aid kid, eye mask, 2 auto toothbrush and a relaxation cd
Hmm, I think this is the most worth one among all the things, I have yet to try
Continue by buying my long await so famous Taiwan Beauty Talk Oxy Mask from Sasa.
What's all the hype about this mask? Taiwan in "Nu Ren Wo Zhui Da" to Singapore?
I will write a review on this tomorrow.
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